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-Stands up, nervously. Clears throat and begins to speak while avoiding eye contact-

Uhh, oh, hello. My name is Cesca. And uhh, I’m a Taeyeon stan.

I guess it all started over a year ago — around May of 2010. That was when I first discovered SNSD. I didn’t think much of it then. They were just this cute new group of girls I happened to discover. They seemed to enjoy dancing around in little cheerleader uniforms. Asian girls liked doing that kind of thing right? Acting all cute and dancing to bubble gum pop? No big deal at the moment. I watched a few of their videos now and then, but they didn’t occupy too much of my time. Then I discovered Soshified and my world was forever changed. Pretty soon I was watching subbed videos, one after another, not even stopping to sleep. I remember staying up one night to watch all the Star Golden Bell episodes. I couldn’t stop myself from watching. I was hooked. 

I’d never really encountered KPOP before, so I didn’t understand it yet. They all looked and sounded the same to me, so I didn’t have a bias. People kept saying there was a “leader” but I didn’t understand what made this role so special. Everything was so new and exciting.

Pretty soon I was catching up on Taeyeon’s “We Got Married” episodes. What a cute girl, I thought. A little strange, but still cute. She turned into a happy fangirl every time she looked at a poster with some actor I didn’t know. Such a dork. She gave her “husband” a nickname — Pudding. How typical of this cutie pie. Everything she did was laced with cuteness. But then… in her private interviews, she started reflecting on her time with her “husband”. And suddenly, she wasn’t just cute. She seemed so wise. So mature for someone so young and childlike. There was something very unique about this girl. And I liked it. 

I did my research. I found out more about her. Birthday: March 9, 1989. Role in SNSD: Leader and main vocalist. Nickname: Kid leader. This girl oozed “aegyo” without even trying. Her incredible vocals proved that big things come in small packages. As my interest in SNSD grew, so did my love for Kim Taeyeon. Any time I saw a picture or a gif of her, my eyes widened. I couldn’t contain my excitement. I squealed like a little girl finding out that she’s going to Disney Land. 

Now here’s a part of my story that I don’t think I’ve ever shared. There was once a time when… well… when my love for Taeyeon wavered. I couldn’t tell you why, even if I wanted to. I just don’t know. I found myself gravitating towards Sunny, then Seohyun, then Sooyoung. But I always came back to Taeyeon. Always. 

And now, here I am — a Taeyeon stan. I don’t know when I crossed the line from “Taeyeon-biased” to full blown “stan” but it happened. I love everything she does. Both good and bad. The way she belts high notes. The way her eyes turn into half moons when she laughs. The lazy way she dances during performances when she’s too tired to give a shit. The subtle way she leads the rest of the 8. The way her cheeks bloated when she gained some weight in 2010. The way her boobs grew when she gained that same weight. The way she dresses like a hobo at the airport. The way she used to lip sync to songs on Chin Chin. The way her voice sends shiver down my spine. The way she types strange noises when responding to UFO’s. The way she got her ass back on stage even after being dragged off by a deluded fanboy. The way her ass is fucking perfect. The way she cut and dyed her hair to look like some two-toned mushroom head. The way she shows her love for Sones. The way she reacts to things, making the most absurd and entertaining faces. The way she out-derps any other member in SNSD. The way she manages to be cute, hot, sexy, beautiful and an absolute goddess — all at the same time. 

There are a million reasons to love this girl. Everything she does is just so perfect to me. Some people may look at some of the things I listed and think, how is that a good thing? Are you actually deluded enough to actually like that stuff? The thing is, I am. I know she has faults, and I love her that much more because of them. I can’t help it. 

I am a Taeyeon stan. 

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